One year ago…

One year ago, I began to suspect I was pregnant.

One year ago, I was researching things online.

One year ago, I was eagerly waiting for the days to pass before I could finally use my home pregnancy test.

One year ago, I was filled with surprise and wonder.

 

Today, I wonder if I will ever feel that joy again.

Today, I wait for those suspicions to return.

Today, I become jealous of those who announce their own pregnancies.

Today, I am filled with longing to have my arms filled.

 

God knows my pain. He knows my longing. Someday.