One year ago, I began to suspect I was pregnant.
One year ago, I was researching things online.
One year ago, I was eagerly waiting for the days to pass before I could finally use my home pregnancy test.
One year ago, I was filled with surprise and wonder.
Today, I wonder if I will ever feel that joy again.
Today, I wait for those suspicions to return.
Today, I become jealous of those who announce their own pregnancies.
Today, I am filled with longing to have my arms filled.
God knows my pain. He knows my longing. Someday.